1. The more I think about it, the more I realize that I don't like the concept of manifesting. It's too... simplistic I guess. Maybe it's just another manifestation (pun intended) of theodicy? I guess I believe that I live my life and try my best, not to manifest results, but to know I did what I could. Life is too chaotic, random. I worry that to focus on manifesting will fritter the energy I can use in the simple act of living.
  2. How does one detach from people that trigger one's trauma response? Groups of them? I keep exploring what healing looks like and I struggle to make that vision concrete.
  3. Sometimes I worry that it’s not so much that I get depressed, but that sometimes I am not. Lately I lack the spoons or drive or joy to do much.
  4. I adore how when my daughter is emerging from a deep sleep state, she will take one good breath that sounds like a snore at the exhale. It's somehow cute and comforting hearing it as I am getting ready for the day.
  5. I created a nice tea blend to soothe stress. 50% lemon verbena, 20% Passionflower leaf, 20% chamomile, 10% holy basil. It's quite yummy.
  6. Current obsessions: Hundred Line game (STILL), roasted edamame. I think that's it lately.
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I decide who I am, and never consider other possibilities.
– Yukiko Motoya (The Lonesome Bodybuilder)