- My time off flew by but it was pretty good! It almost makes it harder to settle down to the hubbub of a new week. But I am happy that I took it slow, did a few light hobbies, and even took one of my favorite types of naps. It's when I turn off the fan to make the house super warm and curl up in a fleece blanket until the heaviness in the air and the quiet knocks me out. I think I got a solid half an hour nap on Friday like that and felt refreshed! Otherwise... I read a book (The Healing Hippo of Hinode Park), finished and blocked my friend's socks, and gamed. I ended up treating myself on Friday to the new Atelier Resleriana The Red Alchemist & The White Guardian. I really loved Sphie 2, but was disappointed that Ryza had a more action based combat mechanic, but this Resleriana is turned based and I'm really enjoying it! True to form, I meander more on side quests and collecting/synergizing. It's nice when a game just lets you forget about worrying about time and being efficient. The world is so cute and cozy too! I'm glad I made the splurge for day 1. I also let out some female rage via writing, because what better way to spend a quiet Sunday than bemoaning the ills of society?
- Speaking of. It's really uncomfortable for me to write about that anger. But I'm just trying to grow into the type of person that does their best to make a decision that is in line with my beliefs. A lot of times I have compromised against my values and not spoken up about how I feel. Or I stick to connections that are way past their due date. Every time I ignore my values, I feel like my life suffers. I feel anxiety about my "friendships" and being enough or not enough erode at my self worth. Or I shop to get a dopamine hit or thrill seek even though I know I hurt myself in the end by getting overstimulated. I use digital tools I don't believe in or ignore red flags in all areas of my life. I keep a job where I don't fit in. There are some things I do to keep my fmaily safe, like keeping my job, but I think that I need to be better about boundaries and not peaople pleasing, etc.
- I did some reskinning on the site and some small changes here and there. I liked my kawaii design a lot but felt it was a bit incongruent with the content? The concept of Piranesi came when I found the photo I am using for the container div. This site is a maze for me to explore things. I hope that like the vestibules of the novels, the tides can clean the detritus of the emotional things I write and leave me feeling refreshed. I leaned hard too into the 2005-2010 ish era of how I remember websites looking. CSS Zen Garden was a huge resource as I searched for some ideas. Do you remember CSS Zen Garden? It made me happy to see it still live. Reminds me of a time when web design styles were unironically called things like: 1950s Hello Kitty, and Pixelated Punk Rock 😂. I also streamlined the Commonplace Book to just randomly populate one gratitude, quote, lyric, and poetry verse daily to feel more like a notebook page instead of just a long list of quotes.
- Current Obsessions: Atelier Reslariana, sock knitting.
For so long now I have been trying to walk forward, and only forward. Believing that life is a linear journey that stretches straight ahead of us. If I look sideways now, what will I see?
– Michiko Aoyama (What You Are Looking For Is At the Library)
